Social Media and Some Vulnerability For You All (OMG- please don't read this, it's embarrassing)

I'm tired of this Grandpa!!!

Heyo- just your local girl who found herself in the depths of a social media doom scrolling depression!

Why do we all do this?

Recently, I have found myself REALLY missing life before social media. It’s a weird feeling as someone who has built a career online and has had so many exciting experiences, all thanks to social media.

However, the feeling of scrolling is leaving a “dead inside” feeling that I just cannot shake lately. I genuinely hate my cell phone these days.

I find myself watching people share their intensive morning routines, big wins, and I just feel like I will never catch up. I am going to be 30 this year (young af), and social media has me thinking that it is time to start planning my funeral arrangements.

I also don’t need to hear it- I KNOW social media is fake, okay? I have been someone who has preached this from the start of my career. However, that does not mean that the false perception is not easy to fall for.

I have been someone who struggles with depression and anxiety for the majority of my (almost) 30 years on earth. I mean, I think most of us are anxious in this day and age. It’s obvious that social media usage has made this worse across the board.

We are NOT supposed to know this much about each other and we are absolutely not supposed to perceive ourselves as much as we do. Like, why am I watching this random girl from college get engaged just to get confused about who she is once her last name changes on Instagram?

Something that has been really hard to admit to myself is how hard it’s been watching other creators grow and receive amazing opportunities from their content (NOT saying that I haven’t- just stay with me here).

I want to say I am always happy for people (and I KNOW you have to be happy for people in order to bring good things into your own life so don’t even start with me). BUT, the constant reminders can definitely get into your head. I feel bombarded with it some days and I find myself in a full functional freeze because my little brain loves to tell itself that I will never grow to that level so why bother?!

EW! God, I sound like a twelve year old right now. I swear most days I am totally fine with this. Honestly, while I am writing this we are on day two of dark rain in New York City and I have just been inside perceiving everyone and everything for a full 48 hours. So yeah, that doesn’t help.

I hope one day we look back on this post and laugh (like omg girl, get it together). And hey, MAYBE this was one that should go in my journal and not on my SubStack. But here we are. Social media is fake and the pressure is fake and go out and have fun with your friends because whatever is happening on your phone isn’t real!!!!!!!!!

Sorry that we kind of just skipped over the nutrition topics this week. I am hoping if one of you ALSO found yourself in the comparison trap this week, that this was somewhat helpful. Okay love you have a good weekend and forget I said any of this!